The Conversations We Never Had
Two years after my narcissistic mother died, I bravely explored a path few dare to tread: I channeled her spirit through a psychic medium. Not for closure—but for truth. The kind of truths therapy couldn’t reach.
What The Convos Is
The Conversations We Never Had is a collection of nine full-length, transcribed channeling sessions I recorded with a psychic medium in 2023. Three of the sessions feature my mother’s spirit. The rest include conversations with my late father, Jeshua ben Joseph (the Aramaic name for Jesus), the Divine Feminine, my soul, my spirit guides—and one extraordinary joint session with Jeshua and my mother.
Each transcript captures every word spoken by spirit, as well as my real-time emotional reactions and reflections woven throughout. These are not recaps. They are full, unsanitized conversations. They explore narcissistic abuse, survival energy, soul contracts, ancestral pain, emotional suppression, grief, what it takes to reclaim your life after you’ve been shattered by the person who gave it to you, and so much more.
There are no audio or video files. What you’re receiving is the written truth, delivered exactly as it came through.
You won’t find this anywhere else.
Who It’s For
If you’re the daughter of a narcissistic mother—especially if she’s gone or you’re no-contact—and you still find yourself asking Why did she do this to me?, this is for you because you already know that logic can’t explain what you survived. These sessions offer the kind of clarity therapy couldn’t give me. They helped me understand her rage, my role, the depth of my wounds, and how to finally move forward.
This work is also for spiritually-aligned therapists, coaches, and healing professionals who support daughters navigating maternal narcissistic abuse. While The Convos is not a clinical tool, it will enable the professional to better understand the inner world of daughters who survived abuse from a narcissistic mother and the inner world of one narcissistic mother. The answers, revelations, and confessions I received changed absolutely everything for me.
You don’t need another tip, another video, or another book. You need truth. And if your mother is dead—or dead to you—this might be the closest thing to understanding and closure you’ll ever find.
Why I Created It
I didn’t set out to build a product. I was trying to understand.
After my mother died, I was still carrying her voice in my head. I couldn’t let go. I couldn’t move on. Therapy helped, but it didn’t answer the core question constantly echoing in me: Why?
Why was I her target?
Why was she so mean and hurtful to a defenseless child?
Why did she love to make me cry and make me feel terrified?
Why was she the way she was?
Why didn’t she treat my sibling the same way she treated me?
Why was she nice to me sometimes, then unpredictably explode with anger?
Did she ever love me?
Why didn’t my dad stop her?
Why did he enable her?
So I went deeper than therapy could ever go.
I worked with a psychic medium. Over the course of six months, I channeled my mother’s spirit—not to forgive her, but to understand her. I asked every hard question I’d never had the chance to ask in life. And then I spoke with my father’s spirit. With Jeshua. With the Divine Feminine. With my own soul and spirit guides. I didn’t stop at healing from her abuse—I wanted to know how to reclaim the life I was never allowed to live. I wanted to know what that life could look like.
These sessions gave me that. They changed me. They softened a place inside me that had been flinching and bracing since childhood. They didn’t just answer my questions—they helped me release the grief, fear, and rage that had defined me for over five decades.
Suddenly, my pain and life experience had context. My confusion had shape. My story started to make sense. That’s what The Convos offers. Not an ending. A beginning you’ve never been given.
The transformation I experienced felt too important to keep to myself. So I’m offering these deep sessions to you.
What You’ll Receive
9 fully transcribed channeling sessions (approx. 1 hour each)
1 healing activity
Every word spoken by spirit
My raw, emotional reactions and reflections woven into each session—unedited and unsanitized
Lifetime access to the full collection.
This isn’t something you read once and move on from. What you see in these sessions will land differently as you change. The deeper your awareness grows, the more these conversations reveal. That’s why lifetime access matters—because some truths don’t fully open until you’re ready. This work evolves with you.
Here’s who you’ll hear from:
My narcissistic mother’s spirit. 3 intense, raw sessions that changed what I believed about her, exposed the shocking truth behind her rage, revealed the parts of her pain I was never allowed to see, and more.
My enabler father’s spirit. No longer controlled by her threats, finally speaking about why he stayed silent, what he feared, and how he saw it all.
Jeshua ben Joseph. The Aramaic name for Jesus (pronounced Yeshua), offering grounded, cosmic truth about narcissism, soul contracts, trauma, grief, forgiveness, and how healing actually works.
My mother’s spirit & Jeshua (joint session). A layered, emotionally raw conversation where Jeshua’s presence softened the space enough for even deeper truth to emerge. What was said in this session rewrote things I didn’t even realize were still buried. It helped me finally begin releasing the shame and grief I had been holding the longest.
The Divine Feminine. A channel of stillness, sacred neutrality, and emotional clarity. Her wisdom reframed why I could never rest, never soften, and never feel safe in my body.
My own soul (free bonus session). Explaining why I chose this path before I was born, the roles I agreed to play, and how I could finally reclaim my life after so much loss.
My spirit guides (free bonus session). Guiding me through karmic patterns, energetic entanglement, and the blueprint for how to stop repeating what I wasn’t meant to carry.
Ground breaking. Thought provoking. Life changing.
I sat down two years after she died and faced the force that had dominated my life. No more gaslighting. No more screaming. No more narrative-twisting. She couldn’t control the conversation anymore.
What to Expect
These are not conceptual teachings or imagined perspectives. These are real, spirit-channeled conversations—across dimensions, across lifetimes—with the woman who abused me, the father who enabled her, and divine voices who helped me find my way back to myself.
Through these beyond-the-grave conversations, you will gain an unprecedented, rare, posthumous view into the inner world of a narcissistic mother—her ego, her psyche, and the distortions that shaped her behavior. You’ll learn what fueled her cruelty. What fed her control. What made her rage.
You’ll also see the truth behind her trauma. The pain she never healed. The beliefs she passed down like venom in the bloodline.
You’ll hear about her childhood, her regrets, and the terrifying force that drove her to keep wounding her oldest daughter and husband. You’ll see what happens when that force follows someone into the afterlife—and what’s possible when it’s finally confronted.
You’ll also witness how enabling fathers collapse under control.
You’ll hear Jeshua explain the mechanics of healing and forgiveness, not from a pedestal, but from compassion.
You’ll feel the Divine Feminine remind you that rest is a right, not a reward.
You’ll see your soul reflected in mine.
And most importantly, you may feel the truth land in your body—not as a concept, but as relief.
Expect validation. Expect depth.
Expect discomfort, resonance, recognition, and, at times, unexpected peace.
You may even feel something you haven’t in a long time: hope for your own healing, growth, and future.
What Makes This Different
You won’t find this anywhere else.
This isn’t another book about narcissistic mothers.
This isn’t a therapist’s interpretation.
This is firsthand spiritual insight from the abuser herself—and from divine energies who helped me understand the why behind it all.
It’s not therapy. But it’s deeply therapeutic.
It’s not a roadmap. But it’s a portal.
These sessions gave me something I didn’t know I was allowed to want: peace, closure, and hope for my future.
And they might give you something, too—answers, resonance, a beginning, or the next step on your healing path.
Suddenly, my pain and life experience had context. My confusion had shape. My story started to make sense. That’s what The Convos offers. Not an ending. A beginning you’ve never been given.
Price & Access
$997
Immediate, lifetime access
Transcripts only (no audio or video)
No refunds. No sampling. This is sacred work.
I paid $10,000 to receive these sessions in a six-month contract with a psychic medium.
You’re getting every word—for less than a tenth of that.
If you’ve been asking questions no one can answer, The Convos may be exactly what you’ve been waiting for.
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Pictures below: Screenshots from channeling sessions.
