My unconventional, spirit-led healing after my narcissistic mother was gone.
Therapy got me only so far.
Then spirit took over.
Most daughters of narcissistic mothers are handed coping tools. I found answers. And what I found will change how you see everything.
This space was born after I followed conventional wisdom and still felt hollow. Not when I went no contact. Not when I named the abuse. But after she died and I asked her spirit every hard question about WHY. That’s when the soul-level shift began.
I hired a professional psychic medium for six months. I didn’t want closure. I needed answers. My healing didn’t begin when the abuse ended. It began when I stopped settling for silence and started channeling answers from the one person I never thought would give them. It began when I heard all the hard truths and understood WHY.
The voice that once destroyed me came back with all the answers. About her. About me. About everything that had never made sense. What I learned changed my life and gave me hope for my future. And that’s why I’m sharing it with you now.
This is The Weight of Belief. This is the story of how I healed from my mean covert narcissistic mother and dysfunctional toxic family. Where my healing didn’t come from more coping tools, meditations, or books. My healing came from understanding what really happened by communicating with spirit and hearing the truths no one else could give me.
—Carole Murphy
Founder & Creator of The Weight of Belief
Daughter of a covert narcissistic mother. Truth-seeker.
Healer by necessity. Rebel by design.
Have you ever searched for the answers to the pain that shaped your life?
Are you still haunted by the question, “Why did my mother treat me like that?” You’re missing the truth.
After my mean narcissistic mother died, I explored a path few dare to tread: I channeled her spirit multiple times through a professional psychic medium. I asked everything therapy couldn’t explain, including the hard questions. What came through was shocking and absolutely changed my life.
I firmly believed insight from the other side would be the missing link to my healing, and it turns out I was right.
Inside The Conversations We Never Had, you’ll read nine fully transcribed channeling sessions, including messages from my narcissistic mother’s spirit, my enabler father’s spirit, Jeshua ben Joseph, The Divine Feminine, my soul, and my spirit guides. Their rare revelations gave me clarity, full validation, and the peace I couldn’t find in books, journaling, or trauma-recovery work.
This isn’t a memoir. It’s a library.
The Conversations We Never Had isn’t meant to be read once and filed away. It’s a session-based archive of spirit-led dialogues—raw, unscripted, layered with truth. Like any true library of wisdom, it offers something new each time you return. As your awareness expands, so does what you’ll see within these pages.
The Weight of Belief Blog
Every post on this blog was written from the trenches of life after my narcissistic mother died—when the silence got loud, the grief got weird, and the real work began.
These writings are raw, spiritual, often rebellious reflections from my journey through healing from maternal narcissistic abuse, The Hollow Passage, and beyond. I didn’t just write about healing. I lived it while documenting. Visit the blog here.
My Mission
I help daughters of narcissistic mothers reclaim what abuse buried—not through therapy or coping tools, but by sharing the truths my narcissistic mother’s spirit revealed after death. Messages from her, my father’s spirit, Jeshua ben Joseph, The Divine Feminine, my spirit guides, and my soul exposed surprising truths about narcissistic abuse and what it really takes to heal. Because understanding isn’t the end of the story. It’s the door to freedom.
The Pillars of TWOB
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TWOB Heart & Mind
TWOB Heart & Mind is where belief meets transformation. This pillar dives into the emotional breaking point that helped me release the version of myself that was built entirely around survival. Healing wasn’t about coping—it was about unlearning, confronting the beliefs and instincts that kept me tethered to my past, and choosing who I wanted to become. This is the space where mindset meets freedom and self-belief becomes a way of life.
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TWOB Soul
TWOB Soul is where the veil thins. Some truths can’t be found in this realm, so I went beyond it. After my narcissistic mother died, the pain and unanswered questions only grew louder. So I did something radical: I connected with her spirit through a professional psychic medium. Those conversations changed everything. But it didn’t stop there. My healing deepened as we channeled my father’s spirit, Jeshua ben Joseph, The Divine Feminine, and more. This pillar explores the spiritual revelations that helped me understand my past and rewrite my future.
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TWOB The Hollow Passage
The Hollow Passage is the name I gave to the emotional freefall that began after my narcissistic mother died. The grief was confusing, distorted, and laced with rage and strange relief. The silence she left behind didn’t feel peaceful, it felt predatory. I feared she could still reach me from the grave. I couldn’t find a single resource that named what I was experiencing, so I created one. This is the space I needed, but couldn’t find—and now it’s yours.
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TWOB Money
TWOB Money is where fear of money stops. My narcissistic mother used money to measure worth and instill shame. For decades, I lived in fear of not having enough because I was taught I never would be. But now, I’m untangling my nervous system from scarcity and teaching it that money is no longer a threat—it’s a partner. This space isn’t about budgets or spreadsheets. The Currency of Belief: Where Worth & Wealth Finally Align, a channeled series launching January 2026, is where this healing begins. This is the work I couldn’t find anywhere else, so I’m creating it.
The Conversations We Never Had
Most daughters of narcissistic mothers are left with silence, speculation, or clinical guesswork. But through these dialogues with my mother’s spirit you’ll gain something far more rare: an unguarded, spirit-level glimpse into the mind of one mean narcissistic mother after death stripped away her defenses.
This is unprecedented access for daughters, therapists, and anyone trying to understand why abuse happens—and how a human being becomes an abuser—through the unfiltered insights of spirit and my narcissistic mother after death.
Through these beyond-the-grave conversations, you will:
gain an unprecedented, very rare, posthumous view into the mind of a mean narcissistic mother, her psyche, and her ego
learn the underlying, motivating, scary force behind one mean mother’s toxic narcissistic behavior
learn the core factors from her traumatic childhood and early adulthood that perpetuated the increasingly vicious cycles of abuse as she aged
gain a unique insider perspective on maternal narcissism and how to heal from it
find paths toward self-discovery
feel some optimism for your own healing and growth.
“I went from the weight of belief to the radiance of knowing
by asking questions no one dared ask,
by channeling the spirit of the woman who broke me,
and by finally trusting my own voice more than hers.
I named the abuse.
I stepped off the traditional healing path.
And I healed in a sacred space beyond logic through the channeling sessions of The Conversations We Never Had.”